One Step: Post #3

Starting over is never easy but to have to start over abruptly, unexpectedly, or against your will makes it even harder.

I would be lying if I said that I didn't see this coming. I truly and honestly SO DID. I just worked so hard, prayed even harder to prevent it. Truth is, by the time I realized this was bound to happen, I was in so deep. I was in love like I was never before. I have already pictured and painted my happy forever after. I have already adjusted my life and my dreams to be with him. I just couldn't lose all this, and definitely did not want to lose HIM.

Now I realized how stupid I was. How naive. How utterly delusional.
There is no such thing as fairy tales. There is no happy forever after. There is no unconditional love (PS: except the one you get from family)

Love is not blind. We are; and I for one was completely blinded with love.

When we fall truly in love the way I did, we willingly become blind to all the imperfections. We make excuses. We let things slide. We even lie to ourselves and guess what, we end up believing those lies.

You know the worst part?
Loving someone so much that it hurts and not getting the same in return.

I'll be honest. I'm glad it's over.
It was never gonna work. I was made into a person that I no longer recognize. I forced myself to keep up with all the BS thinking that one day it'll pay off. That he will realize that I did it all for us but I was wrong. So very completely wrong.

I usually not wish to take thing back, no matter how bad they are but if I had one wish right now, it would be for me to never have known him or any of the evil people that are somehow linked to him. I wish to have never fallen in love with him. I wish to never have given so much love, care, and time. I wish to have just been me against the world. I was fine on my own. Why did he have to ruin it all?

One last thing. Nobody is perfect and karma is a bitch واللي على راسه بطحة، يتحسسها